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Got some stuff on my mind lately.. Been thinking a lot more on things I'm not that used to think about, a dilemma I didn't exspect to have... I guess things have change, or I'm actually not sure if they have.. Maybe that's the problem?? I know what I feel and think, it's just not that easy getting the words down in writing.. Oe perhaps, it's the other way around..? You know what?? I don't frickin know!!! And it's bothering me.. I want to know!! This..., stuff, just makes me confused.. Stuff I'm not sure to be sure on before I see it. And stuff I'm so sure of, because they are stearing me right in the face.. I know that for someone who hasn't heard what I had to say, don't get this.. And there aren't to many that have.. I'm not sure who to tell, or who wants to hear.. None the less, I still feel that I've got a lot more people around me now than ever before ♥ And I'm so happy about that!! It really means the world to me : )
But I still have this, dilemma.. I don't know what to do... I've been more awake lately, just thinking. I know I have to chose. But I'm not sure what yet.. I have to get something confirmed first. There are stuff I need to know, before I take a decision... But I have no clue how to find out exactly.. I guess I just have to ask. And to my question, "my way", I think I allready know the answer, and it will be somewhat tipping both ways, but will go to the "down/no" end.. Just wait and see.. 
But in my heart I think I've allready chosen, I just can't be a frickin' coward.. I always am, and I always screw up. So, I think I'm going to try, even if I'm so frickin scared. I think I will be in good hands : ) Besides, if I don't try, how can I know what I miss or not? Maybe it won't work, it' doesn't have to ruin everything. But what if it do work? I will only know if I try :p 
Sorry if this makes no sence.. Or actually, I don't care.. My blog, my stuff :D


Still thinkin' to much, trying to figure out.. :D 
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